Mind fails and words fail. Affected by jungle, by plants, decomposing, transforming does not necessarily mean nootropic boost of more of the same, but sometimes rather painful process of destruction of personality, of ego that was a source of its own pride, maker of its own trap. Ego death does not necessarily mean sudden event in ceremony, but can be gradual letting go of everything that was seen as a treasure before. One can only hope to trust the others who have gone before, that only after letting go of one thing, another can be revealed, and behind cracked mind, waits hidden more of the feeling. When more of concepts and theories simply do not enter, or slide right away, and no effort can stop that, love remains the only solution.